How FAITHFUL He has been to me
When I look at myself, I simply see ordinary.
I see a girl that doesn't always ( or ever ) have it all together
I see someone that is unorganized
could stand to lose a few pounds
could stand to gain a little patience
I see a girl who has a temper and doesn't always control it
I see a girl that would love to spend more time with the Lord but consistently chooses other things
I see someone that doesn't always choose love
doesn't always choose forgiveness
doesn't always grace
I see someone that can NEVER find matching socks... no matter how many brand NEW BAGS of them I buy!
I am the mom that forgets picture day, lunch money and PTA meetings
I feel more comfortable in jeans and tshirts that nice pants and high heels
Upon first glance, these are the things that I see
My reflection shows someone that is in need of some ( haha A LOT) of repair and tweeking
Upon first glance... I am ORDINARY ( lets be honest...maybe upon third and forth glance I appear ordinary as well;)
Looking at me, my hands, feet, and my life I realize I am simply Oridnary
The Father has whispered to my heart today just how EXTRAORDINARY HE IS MAKING ME
When I gave my life to Christ, He began a GOOD work in me! He knew that as a human I would be flawed
He knew that I would choose bitterness, selfishness and yes... EVEN TOO MANY DONUTS
but in the chaos of who I am
His still small voice speaks to my heart reminding me that He isn't finished with me
He is making HIS glory known and doing extraordinary things in and through ORDINARY people like me!
Yesterday I prayed that the Lord would provide $1000 total from our weekend of yard sales!
I really prayed like I was begging... almost asking God if He could possibly squeeze out $1000 for our family.
Tonight as I sit here, I am so saddened by my attitude. So sad that I have not trusted HIM the way that I would like people to think. The way I would like myself to think
Today, as the yard sale was in FULL FORCE... I really couldn't handle it. Always one step away from tears..over a shower curtain or baby bottle. I felt like each thing sold was another step to Chloe and Eli. I never knew it would be so emotionally difficult to have a yard sale!
At the end of the day, my sister ( who has been MORE THAN AMAZING) totaled up the money and
the GRAND TOTAL FROM DAY ONE is $2047.00!!!
Look at what HE has done and be amazed! He is providing to bring our babies home!!
DID YOU EVER DOUBT HE WOULD?!?!?
Somedays I do... but its times like this week that He says just be still and KNOW that I AM GOD!
Please continue to pray for this ordinary mommy to TRUST
Pray for our yard sale tomorrow